GPOYW.

A triumphant return to the blogosphere...no?

Goals*

[to be accomplished by the end of next summer]

• couch to 5k
• lose 20 more lbs
• get-up on water skis
• go on a vacation
• skydive
• pay off credit card

*subject to change throughout the year

It's True

There's a topic i've been avoiding on this blog for a long time...

John and I aren't together anymore.

I'm guessing you've figured it out, but if not, i can tell you that we've been separated since october.
It sucks, yes. But i don't want to dwell on it. I don't want to humiliate him on here. I don't want to play the blame game. I know what happened, and that's enough.

yes, I tried to make amends. I tried so hard. but eventually, i realized that i am a catch. and i want to be with someone who wants to be with me. not someone who feels obligated.

someone who wakes up every morning and thinks how lucky they are to have me.
how they don't deserve me, but they're so glad i chose them.

and i will find that, when i'm ready.

Until them, i'm relearning about myself (sidenote: therapy and alcohol are wonderful coping mechanisms)

and i've found something i haven't felt in awhile.... I'm happy

and for now, that's more than enough.

Want.

i really do have a legitimate reason to buy it, promise!
but umm, it's $225.
and every extra penny i can save really ought to go towards clothes i can wear to work.
(i have been able to make the sun dresses semi-work appropriate, but i am screwed when the weather turns)

anyone want to treat me to an over-indulgent shopping spree? i promise to (not) pay you back.

People Always Ask Me When I'll be Moving Back Down South

Yesterday, Memphis had a heat index of 116.

In Wisconsin, the staples of my diet are beer and cheese. And I'm often encouraged by others to consumer more beer and cheese.

Plus, we have this.

So.... i'm thinking my answer is, never.

sound good?

UPDATED: Things I Desperately Need to Do:

• wax eyebrows
• haircut
  this will have to wait until i have some money. i'll just have to be Rapunzel for awhile.
• alter fancy party dress
• find shoes for fancy party dress
  oh god, the amount that i love these is borderline inappropriate
  
• pay bills
  thank god i finally got a paycheck. It was at critical mass. I was avoiding creditor's calls and close to not having electricity, people.
• buy groceries
  yeah...that really needs to happen. i've basically been living off of leftover animals crackers at work.
  animals eaten: 1,000; nutritional value: 0
• sleep
  nope....
• do laundry....or buy more underpants
  I did do laundry once since this post. but seriously, i need more underpants.

fail. win?

Some highlights from my fancy schmancy accessories shopping spree today:

1) Seeing a pregnant lady shopping at Forever 21.
then again, i really shouldn't be in there either, so who am i to judge?

2) Using the left-turn bike signal when my shopping cart and I were trying to turn down an aisle at Target.
yep...

Things I Desperately Need to Do:

• wax eyebrows
• haircut
• alter fancy party dress
• find shoes for fancy party dress
• pay bills
• buy groceries
• sleep
• do laundry....or buy more underpants

but there's no time. none.

it's getting to the point where i have reduced my once-glorious blog, into a to-do list.

fail.